The Road Less Traveled

Like Frost -I have always been a "road less traveled" girl.
(Insert father shaking head "Yes")

I would decide how I wanted to do things, and my parents would ALWAYS try to show me an easier way.

I never listened.

I am not afraid to go East when everyone else is going West.

If Someone tells me "it can't be done", I will do my best to prove that it can.

Some things have worked out the way I'd hoped they would, and some things didn't.

I have never been one to regret my choices. I just don't like the word.

I choose to learn, instead.

And Oh! How I have learned.


The greatest thing being a "road less traveled" girl has taught
me is that if God wants it to happen, It Will...And if He doesn't , It Won't.

No amount of worry or crying or feeling sorry for myself will change it.

I know because I have tried ALL of the above.
(Not to mention reasoning, bargaining and my personal favorite,denial.)




A few months ago,after 12 months on a waiting list for a son ,
Stacy and I left a Taiwan program because we just did not feel
it was the place we should be.

When we felt that we were being called to return to China, we chose
to use our original agency, even though they had NO Special Needs
Program. We knew that it was uncharted territory, but they felt
that they could do it. We were going to try an identify a SN boy
from Mary's SWI .

No Problem- "Road Less Traveled"girl can handle it.


Things started getting crazy and it looked
like we would have to log-in for a special needs child and odds were
that we would be referred a NSN girl or a SN girl after the
NSN referral timeline.......UH! Never-Mind.


Our agency totally understood, so here we are:
Complete dossier(SW holding HS until we tell her otherwise)
INS approval
and not a single thing to do with it.

Lovely!



During the whole dossier prep ,we were constantly
given the name of an agency closer to home.


People would come up and ask us if we were using Lifeline.
The one SN family( out of a zillion) that I contacted used Lifeline.
Met the woman who is our new Home Education Assoc. president and her
sister does the medical reviews for Lifeline. The day
that I e-mailed our agency to tell them that we were going to try
to identify a child, I got an SN listing update from Lifeline,
and the day I saw a tiny little face that made me cry, I clicked
on the "agency info"section and there, among a few others, was Lifeline.


"O.K. God! I don't even know if the CCAA has the paperwork on this. I don't
even know what to ask. I have NEVER heard of this! We are both talking
about China,right? Impossible situation, but I will call.
I am SO gonna get laughed at. O.K. Here I go?"

So I dial the phone, shaking my head the whole time!

As it turned out, we did not get laughed at. We were actually supported.
Hmmmm....Well that didn't work out like I had thought.


So now I am feeling like this is what God is wanting us to do, but I don't
want to get my hopes up. I don't even want to talk about it or get excited
about the possibility of it.

But we will try.

What's the worst that can happen? The CCAA can tell us, No.
We wouldn't be the first and we certainly wouldn't be the last.

I'm sure there are tons of letters just like ours, sitting either on top of
ours or on bottom, pleading for the same opportunity.

I don't even know if they have the letter ,yet.

So I wait.

I wait to see what God has in store for us.

I wait to see if we will welcome more children into our family.

I wait to see if we stop having children all together because HE has
different plans.

I wait to see what is at the end of the Road Less Traveled.

Maybe it will make All the difference.

We'll see.

Peace.