Life is like a box of Chocolates....You never know what you are going to get.
After I spent the whole day angry and quite disillusioned
(see crying baby post),
My husband comes home from work.
We talked about what we should do.
Of course, I want to find another agency, identify a child, and
move on....
But I asked Stacy what his "Gut Feeling" was.
He said that his gut feeling was to leave things like they are.
Continue with this agency, continue with the unidentified
special needs request, basically see what God has in store for us.
Hmmmm......O.K. not the answer I was looking for, but
I have been at this long enough to know that my initial
reaction to ANYTHING is usually the wrong one.
(I come from a long line of fighting people, so you can imagine.)
I also know that Stacy's initial reaction, as bad as I hate to
admit it-publicly, is usually the right one.
He is also so much more capable of taking a blind leap of
faith than I will ever be. A character flaw, I know, but
there it is.
I'm sure that is why God paired us up.
I needed someone to follow.
He is always my "get out of jail free" card.
So that's it.
We will continue, full speed ahead, into the unknown, and see what
God sends our way(possibly in 24-36 months).... Crazy as that may seem.
All I have to say is..... My "Box of Chocolates" better be GODIVA
or Stacy's in HUGE trouble.
Peace.
"I have been at this long enough to know that my initial
ReplyDeletereaction to ANYTHING is usually the wrong one." haha sorry, I know you having a tough time but this was such a funny and probably way too true for me statement as well. It must be something in the air because we just did a total review overhaul and make sure everything is still kosher with our adoption journey as well! That's part of the reason I disappeared for a bit. Life was hard the first part of the year and I haven't fully recovered (getting there though). Thanks for checking up on me... it was really nice to hear from ya. You can Gump along with me anytime.... "did you ever ride a wump of a man named Gump?" Dr.Suess must have had adoption in mind! Seven Hump Wump. =0) Sara/sofa
You sound a lot like me and my hubby sounds like yours! Like you, I always say we were matched perfectly.
ReplyDeleteI know this waiting and not knowing is so hard. There may be some agencies that you don't have to be chosen, but rather you can choose the child. We did this, but our agency no longer does China adoptions. Let me know if you need any help looking for such agencies.
You're doing the right thing, girlfriend. That's why God gives us husbands. Mine applies the brakes all the time and I am so glad he does. :)
ReplyDeleteI will be praying that this 24-30 month thing is NOT going to be your timeline. God is bigger. And of course, he could match you with a baby tomorrow. Your paperwork is ready - now, we pray for a little one. It's as easy as that. :)
I love the way Rebecca said it! Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteinsightful post! and it's so wonderful that we're paired with husbands who have strengths where we are weak (speaking for myself!)
ReplyDeleteFurthermore -- there have been some recent changes to the way SN referrals are handled -- try to hang in there until the bugs are worked out of the system, there's lots of us feeling the confusion. I think all will be well. Peace to you as you wait.
I am sorry for the wishywashiness of the agency... I pray your referral is expedited and they are giving you worst case scenario. I know 20 plus months sounds like forever when you want your baby home now. :( Hopefully when the Olympics are over things will change some. I pray they do for everyone and most of all for the children who sit and wait foor homes.
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